I began my official birth family search in March 2014 by sending a letter to Holt International Children’s Services. I was sorely disappointed when I received a letter back stating that they could not find a record of me. They ended the letter by saying that it was possible that I was adopted from a similarly named agency called Holt Children’s Services of Korea.
It took me a full month to recover from the blow I was given. It took a lot of effort to finally get over all the emotions I had to send that letter. Now I was back to square one and had to go through it all over again. “Am I really supposed to be doing this? Maybe this is a sign that I shouldn’t start The Search.” It may seem like something so small and easy to someone who isn’t adopted, but for me this was one of the biggest decisions of my life.